Sunday, December 22, 2013

Holding Back

The past couple of weeks has been a little slow in the kink department.  After our wonderful night with Mr L., we had one last guest for the weekend.  AJ is a younger fellow we meet a few months ago.  To be honest, our first encounter was a little meh on the sexual side of the house… but he had a bit of a dominant streak and I loved watching him fuck my cuck.  After he had left, my cuck and I went through our usually rehashing of events and comparing notes.  Kind of a kinky after action review, with a dash of teasing and torment.  My boy was a little surprised when I said the sex was just good.  Admittedly, AJ had me squirting often through the whole encounter… so it was tough to explain what was off at first.  Best I could say was it felt like he was trying too hard.  

It’s an interesting phenomenon to watch manifest itself as I’ve wondered down my sexual path.  Being one who firmly believes in going after what you want, I’ve found getting what I want sexually is about being up-front about what you like and don’t like.  So when I chat with men, I’m pretty much up-front about what I like in the bedroom.  These days, it’s a tall order.  I’ve noticed the more I’ve been able to articulate what I like, the more I’ve come across men who will try to be this thing I want, but it’s not a natural thing for them.  They will literally try and role play the part I’ve spelled out for them.  Problem is, it just doesn’t work for me.  If it feels forced, it’s hard for me to relax, because I start to worrying if the other one is having a good time.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I would never speak ill of any of these men.  For many, it was their first time with a cuck couple.  For others, I think it was something that sounded hot in talk, but in reality, it just wasn’t something that came naturally for them.  With AJ, it turns out, it was all just the jitters. LOL.

Even though my sex-snobby self usually doesn’t want to bother again when the sex is just meh..finding bi-sexual tops isn’t an easy thing.  There aren’t too many out there to begin with, but when you tack on the black, 8”+, and crazy stamina that I require of any of my lovers… it gets a bit tougher.  AJ is one of the very few we’ve met that actually likes to fuck my cuck.  We did have a really good time with him.  He enjoyed being rough, has a wonderful cock, really enjoyed watching me humiliate my cuck, and even chimed in a time or two himself. It was easy to see that with someone like AJ, I could explore some avenues I just hadn’t had a chance to yet.  So I decided I wanted to see him again anyway.  When the second date came round…


It was almost night and day from his first visit.  I jokingly told my cuck that I thought the stiffness the first night was because he was trying to hold back.  Why?  I’m not sure.  But needless to say.. we’ve had several more visits from AJ since. 

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