Kinky kind of week

Looks like this week is turning into the nice kink filled kind.  D's coming by tomorrow and it looks like we're meeting a new couple on Wednesday.  She sounds soo yummy, I just can't wait to get a hold of her.

Welcome back D!

D came by for what turned out to be a nice, long, wonderful visit that capped our weekend quiet nicely.  After having so much fun at the hotel with him and R, we figured it was worth a shot to see how well he could keep up on his own.  Let me just say… he didn’t disappoint!

Deciding to let it all hang out... we set up the table and emptied out the toy bag.  Essentially putting it all out there and on display to see what may come of it all.  Admittedly, D enjoyed checking it all out, but didn’t really brave pulling anything out.  Though he did have fun watching us using the toys.

Of course, prior to D’s arrival, we spent the morning/afternoon getting ready.  Being our first day without kids, my boy was due his weekly review and spankings.  Bent over the bed, I had fun using my hands, paddle and flogger to turn his backside a nice crimson red.   What was actually a bit comical was that he fell asleep during the flogging, ass perfectly balanced in the air.  Of course, I took advantage of the fact that he wasn’t whining at all and just had fun playing around with it all.  I finally quit when I got worried about him getting a kink in his neck from lying that way for too long.  I then had him dress me in the nice white peek- a- boo teddy and white thigh high stockings.  I dressed him in only his collar and leash.  We head down stairs, where I laid him across my lap and took my sweet time stretching his ass out nice and wide. Of course, as I tend to do, I got carried away a bit.  I was having so much fun making my boy moan and groan, that I lost track of time.  D walked in, right about the time I had a fistful of hair in one hand and the base of a butt plug (which was buried in his ass of course) in the other.  D just cracked a smile and said “I see you couldn’t wait to get started either!”

Things started off a bit slowly as we tried to start the night off with the swing, but I think D was a bit over eager to be patient to get things adjusted right (he literally took me right on the basement floor! LOL)… so we abandoned the swing and headed straight for the bed.  For nearly two and half hours, the sex was non-stop.  In every position possible.  We soaked the entire bed and everyone was an exhausted pile of goo, when I finally called for a break.  We headed back downstairs and lounged lazily on the couch, completely naked.  Though, that didn’t last long, as D’s hand just couldn’t help but wander everywhere.  Next thing I know, D’s announcing he wants to try the swing as he’s pulling me down to the basement.  For another hour and a half, D learned why we love that damn swing so much.  At one point, I was literally high on endorphins as wave after orgasmic wave passed over me.  Then right before D came, he pulled out a literally exploded inside my boys mouth.  Fucking Beautiful!

While, we are not calling the hunt off, we had an amazing time!  So much so, that D is going to be my valentine tomorrow night!  Mmmmmm

So where have we been for the last few months?

  To be honesty, we sort of took a break from the D/s side of things.  We had a lot of changes going on in the year and a half we’ve been together and somewhere in there, a misstep was taken.  Things were getting more and more frustrating for both of us and that resulted in a bit too much pushing and pulling.  I could see things spiraling in the wrong direction, but was at a loss as how to right the ship again.  So after a long discussion, where it became apparent we weren’t even on the same page anymore, I called a halt to it. After a few months of reflecting, it really boiled down to both of us failing at balancing everything that was pulling us in opposite directions.  During those times when work got hectic and/or the kids were here, we weren’t doing a very good job at maintaining the undertones of the D/s dynamic that made it easier to enjoy our free time.  Erratic schedules made it hard to plan anything, leaving me frustrated and feeling ignored.  Long durations of no play or enforcement, left his submission tucked neatly in some drawer.

Don’t get me wrong, we would have moments; wonderful moments where the world would synch together perfectly and we’d have an evening that left us longing for more.  Plus at the core, the relationship itself was sound.  There was too much good between us to let something like a power struggle ruin it.  But I just felt like the D/s was all pretend, and on his terms… which just smacked me hard as not something I wanted to be a part of.

We left the kink in.  THAT we are good at.  Scenes between us are just HOT and yummy.  Why on earth should we stop that?  Plus part of me thought what if maybe that’s enough.  Just bedroom games, that got really kinky and wild all over the house.  Did we really need the 24/7 D/s?  But I left one caveat; it was up to him to initiate sex or play. 

What first shocked me was how quickly the frequency of play took a quick dive.  Almost like he didn’t know how to ask, or maybe couldn’t.  He wasn’t like that when we first met.  While it wasn’t outright asking, he sure knew how to tease me just right… if he was looking for something.  Once in awhile, I wouldn’t take the bait, just to keep him on his toes.  But it never stopped him from trying and I found that soo cute.   But when it was actually up to him, it was almost like it all completely lost it’s luster.

The sex took longer to dwindle off.  Though probably more so because my sex drive always kept that humming a bit.  It was hard not to pounce him once in awhile.  But it began to feel like something was missing and I noticed my drive dwindling too. 

And then it happened.  One morning I woke up a bit ticked off.  he had woken up earlier and had already wandered downstairs.  I was horny and he was gone, and that just kinda struck a bad cord with me.  As I came downstairs, he looked at me and said “I miss having a submissive”

I just stopped and looked at him and fired back, “Yeah?  Me Too!”  I saw that flash of recognition in his eye and knew he knew exactly what I meant.

But he replied back “I miss morning BJs”

To which he got another “Me Too!” from me.  He dropped the whole conversation right there.  It hung there for a couple of weeks.  You could feel a slight change of energy.  Then came the talk.  He wanted it back, and I admitted I did to.  But I knew we still have things to work on, figure out.  So we are trying to figure a few things out .  We’ve decided to give chastity (via device) another try and we still need to sit and talk about some other issues.  So I’m trying to decide if I should just grab the bull by the horn and take it back, or maybe should we just ease into it again and build a solid foundation.  My head says go slowly, but that damn devil side is screaming to just go take it…. DO IT NOW!

Wonder which one ends up winning out.

What did you do this weekend?

Me?

It had been awhile since we had had a real good play session with a sexy stud.  Not since our trip to DC before Christmas.  I was getting antsy and he knew it.  We’d been trying for a couple weeks to get something going, but just kept running into one player after another.   Even with our regulars, we’d be running into schedule conflicts.  So after nearly two months of quiet, we decided it was time to setup a hotel party.  Time for the annual gang bang.

We sent out the invites and had nearly 10 respond back saying they would drop by.  I was ecstatic.  Desperately in need for one of those nights full of intense orgasms after intense orgasms.  That kind of night that takes multiple studs to accomplish.  I sent my sub off with orders to get a nice hotel room with a big hot tub to play in and to get it all prepped for fun.  I spent the few quiet hours getting myself primped and ready for the long night of fun.  An hour before party time, my cuck came back home to pick me up and take me to the room.  There, he finished getting himself ready under my supervision, which left him naked, save for the locked collar around his neck and the cage around his little dick.

Sadly, the night was a bust for the gang bang… as only 2 out of 10 actually showed (so tired of wankers!!!), but it turned out to be one of the most fun and amazing nights my cuck and I have spent with others.

R was the first to show.  He had been to a couple of our group setups and has always proven to have the stamina and drive to almost keep up with me.  At nearly 10”... he can get back into that sweet spot that makes me cum so hard and can pound through a few killer orgasms for me.  While a sweet heart, with a wit that keeps me in stiches... we found him a bit too goofy for more of the one on one.  But he has this insane ability to get everyone relaxed and in the right mood, when it comes to the group settings.   My cuck and I were both glad to see him be the first to arrive.

After just a few minutes of idle chitchat, R just couldn’t keep his hands off of me.  We quickly moved to the bed, where R lost no time getting me bent over, flipping up my skirt and admiring my bare ass on full display.  It was right about this time that D showed up.  D was a new stud that we had been chatting with for a while, but hadn’t been able to meet up with.  We often find these setting to be a great way to determine if they can actually keep up with us and our wild ways.  As my cuck open the door to let him in, his first glance of me was my bare ass propped on the bed.  I turned my head, gave him a wry smile and welcomed him to the party.  He didn’t even flinch as he walked over, planted a kiss on my cheek and gave my ass a nice little smack.  

After that, things start to become just a blur of orgasmic bliss.  For nearly 5 hours, R and D worked nearly seamlessly together to keep me in a state of complete rapture.  Both gentlemen were so laid back, easy going and open minded that at one point while both fellas need to take a breather and my jaw was in need of a break from sucking, we found ourselves all on the bed… me with my strap-on buried deep in my cuck’s ass, while D stuffed my cuck’s mouth with his big, fat cock and R managed to get his cock stuffed in mine.  Only regret I had was there wasn’t anyone else left in the room to get pics of such a hot setup! LOL

By the end of the night, D came three times, R came twice and I... well, we all lost count of how many I had had by the first hour, but I have my suspicions that the number was closer to 1000 then 100! LOL I even let my poor little cuck cum once for being such a good boy and setting up such a wonderful night for me.

To be honest, I was glad no one else ever showed up.  I have no doubt that we would have lost the amazing chemistry we happen to find that night between all four of us. 

Difficulties

When I started this blog, it was with the intent of cataloging and sharing my adventures in learning to become a Dominant.  Though a bit over a year into flexing my muscles, I still feel so new and so raw at it.  What really surprised me a bit, was how tough of a time I have had changing the mentalities I’ve lived with all my life.  

Why the surprise?  

Well, I’ve always been naturally dominant in my day to day life.  I’m not a bossy, pushy or even outspoken type, but all my life people have naturally turned to me for leadership, guidance, training and wisdom.   I’ve never had the hang ups that so many women I know do, which is that life isn’t worth living without a man taking care of you.  From a very early age, men were simply a source of entertainment, fun, and companionship.  As far as aggressiveness?  I’m pretty sure that’s what the A in my middle name stood for.  My entire childhood was spent playing with the big boys and I never for a second doubted my ability to keep up.  Sexually, I was a pretty adventurous soul and while not everything turns me on, I’m open minded enough to hear it all without judgment.  I mean I didn’t even baulk when my boy started telling me about his kinks.  I mean when I think about it, I’m almost surprised I didn’t find my way here sooner.

So what was so difficult?

OMG, EVERYTHING!  Ok, not everything, but it did surprise me how many socially ingrained taboos I really did have.  Things like equality and fairness made it hard to simply order him around.  My “take it as it comes” attitude still causes issues with planning things out to avoid conflicts.  My independent nature and do it myself attitude caused him much concern early on.  

The kinks themselves were easy, fun actually.  Most everything I had already played around with in some form or another.  Taking charge in the bedroom happened almost instantly and as I explored and learned.. it has expanded quite nicely.  But actually taking the control out of the bedroom has been an interesting and sometimes very frustrating challenge that can leave me wondering if this is all worth it.  But yet, somehow I wake up each morning wanting to continue and so we do!

Kicking off the Football Season

It's been a bit of a lazy day today, well at least for me!

After a late night full of fun and kink, I slept in rather late today.  But still awoke to a nice breakfast from the boy.  A bit of lazy snuggling on the couch, then a nice session of the boy between my legs.  Next up... sending the boy off to the store for the game day munchies.  The rest of the day was spent enjoying all the games of the day with a good boy dutifully taking care of me! Sweet bliss!

Getting Back in the Saddle

Life has been so hectic and stressful that finding time to post has been a bit of a rarity.  On top of school and activities, we had to battle the sickies as well.  Thankfully both the boy and I are on the mend and kid free all week, so now it’s time to stir the pot and see what trouble bubbles the surface.  The boy has been awfully cheeky all week and needs a bit of a firmer hand.  Though thinking we got the weekend started off right. 

Friday night was girl’s night out… to a football game!  I have to admit I loved the irony of leaving the boy home to deal with dishes and laundry while the girl’s and I were getting rowdy at the local college football game.  After getting home, a little servitude and body worship then I tuck us both into bed.

Today has been a rather fun filled day.  A nice lazy morning as a wrapped up some work related issues while being served breakfast in bed.  The boy took a little prodding to wake up from his nap to get started on the house cleaning, but admittedly it was a fun excuse to warm up his sexy ass with my crop.  As aggressive and rough as I am with my hands, I still find myself a bit tentative whenever I add a tool in my hand.  Though today seemed a little different.  Even though everywhere I read states not to hit out of anger, I found allowing a bit of it out during his correction very helpful in overcoming that issue.  A couple dozen deliciously sounding whacks did the trick to get the boy back in his headspace and the rest of the day flowed very smoothly.

First up was a short but lovely visit from a stud we had met last year when we first got started with the cuckold play.  A wonderful and sexy gentleman whose demeanor we both adore, we were sad to learn shortly after our play date, he was sent off to Afghanistan.  So I was over the moon last week, when we had received a message from him that he would be in town today.  Actually, his plane was landing here and he would drive off to visit family on the east coast.  I felt a bit extra special in that he actually didn’t even wait to go home first, but instead chose to drive straight from the airport here.  While the visit was short, he did leave my boy a nice, nasty, juicy surprise to clean up when he was done.

Next up… the young pup.  A sexy, little vanilla boy who thinks he’s ready for a little kink .  Wonderful boy in bed, full of all sorts of energy… Now time to see if he can handle the twisted side.